Epiphany #FictionMondays

Tears streamed down my cheeks, I kept wiping them away and blinked my eyes focussing on the road ahead. The last thing I wanted was to cause an accident.

The sky was grey, clouds hovered all around as thunder rumbled – it felt like the weather perfectly summed up my inner turmoil.

The heated conversation with Gina flashed before my eyes, I couldn’t take it anymore. I slammed the brakes and burst into tears. Was this a nightmare? I wish it was. I honestly wish this had never transpired between us.

My girl, my lifeline, my heartbeat Gina, the one around whom my entire life revolved. Hell it wasnt easy being a mom, managing your job, a child, responsibilities that came with it. But one look at her innocent face and I forgot all my pain .

We were inseparable, I was her world and she mine. We were not just mother daughter but pals. And then she grew up and dint need me any longer. I had become a hindrance.

The tiff we had today had gone a step further where she said something that made my heart almost stop beating. I walked out silent, too shocked to utter a word. As I sat in my car and left, I could hear her running behind “Mom, please stop, I am sorry, I dint mean it”

But I was in a trance.

The whole scene flashed before my eyes, the pain was getting heavier to bear. As I closed my eyes, I could vividly remember my overgrown belly, the first time I saw her after she was born, I took her in my arms and hugged her. She fulfilled my dream of being a mother, something I had so badly wanted. And then it struck me, almost like I had been blinded for years and my vision was clearing slowly.

She had never asked to be born, it was my desire to be a mother that made me bring her into this world, I cannot hold her under the weight of my sacrifice for lifetime. Any sacrifice I had made – in terms of my career, my life, my dreams had been of my own free will. I wasn’t being fair to her.

I needed to let her spread her wings and fly, explore the world, make mistakes sure but learn to move on. However scared I was, I had to let my baby live her life and release her from the shackles I had bound her with.

I smiled as took out my phone and dialled her number. The overcast sky was now decked by a rainbow.

Written in response to FictionMondays hosted by Vinitha Dileep.

5 thoughts on “Epiphany #FictionMondays

  1. That’s a heartwarming story, Akshata. Yes, we need to let our children fly by themselves, but it’s difficult to gather that courage to let them. You have captured the essence very well in this story, Aks. 🙂
    Happy to read your beautiful story for #FictionMonday. 🧡

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  2. Very tough to let a piece of our heart leave our hand and fly away to explore the world on their own but we have to learn to let go. You’ve captured this struggle so well in your story, Akshata!

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