The baby is 6 months old today and as I walk out of the house, dressed up in my newly bought “Tommy Hilfilger” formal dress and Clarks suede shoes, it feels surreal. A part of me is apprehensive of leaving behind my precious bundle of joy but the other part is excited to go out into the adult world and do something I enjoy, get back to the corporate grind, have conversations on topics other than burps and baby food.
Some of the people were surprised that I decided to join work so soon, after 6 months of my maternity leave. It was a decision I had taken after much deliberation with my husband and most of all after much of debate and discussions with self. I may sound crazy but I talk a lot to myself especially when it comes to taking tough decisions. I knew I had to go back someday, more than anything this is something I wanted for myself. I don’t believe in the term “sacrifices”, in fact I feel the decision of having a child is something a couple consciously makes because they want to experience parenthood. Putting their own wishes at the alter for the sake of a child and then bearing this resentment within for years is bound to explode someday. And the worst sufferer is going to be the child.
I believe in being a happy individual first, doing things that make me happy, only then can I be a happy Mom to my child. It reminds me of that poem “Que Sera Sera Whatever will be, will be, the future is not ours to see”. As a parent we have many dreams for our child but being the right role model is what it all starts with. When my daughter sees me pursuing my passion with vigour, she is bound to follow her dreams too.
I don’t know what she will turn out to be, all I want is for her to be happy, to believe in herself and stand up for what she believes is right.
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My theme for the challenge is
“A slice of life through Myra’s eyes” – a fictional tale of growing up and learning some vital lessons about self love, feminism, sisterhood, a working woman and the essence of being a woman in urban India.
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