October has been an eventful month.
It began with the preparations for my 2.5 month business trip to Zurich, as I was cramming my bag with almost every other thing. When you have the luxury of business class travel, extra baggage is least of your worries- a generous 64kg baggage is what I was permitted to carry!
Parting with my daughter and mom was the most difficult thing but as I began a new journey on my own for these few months, I looked forward to new experiences , learnings and things to reflect upon.
As the month drew to a close, I had lots to be thankful for and it was quite a different list as compared to one that I usually have.
- Home is where the heart is, amongst our people. But travelling to a distant land and being alone on one of the biggest Indian festivals Diwali can be quite a dampener. Thats when the unexpected happens. A kind soul and blogger friend Nidhi who lives here invites me over and I have a fab time celebrating Diwali and eating to my heart’s content – I would never have imagined a Diwali with sparkers on a balcony, on a chilly night in Zurich. Thankful to Nidhi and her friends who made me feel at home
- Its quite unlikely to experience acts of kindness from strangers in India, thats been my experience in general. But I was pleasantly surprised to have been showered with kindness in abundance from people here. On my first day I went to have a cup of coffee and the lady who is an Indian offered me a free apple. In fact whenever I visit that store, I always get a free apple from her. There was this girl then who held the door of the train as I was puffing and panting trying to reach in time before it left the station. Someone who held the door for me , gave me a smile, it made a lot of difference by creating positive vibes.
- Its a month I have moved here and I see my daughter on skype-and talk to her though the 3 year old is more interested in playing with her friends after the “hi Mumma” but I miss having her around, cuddling her, bathing her, feeding her. She seems all grown up all of a sudden as mum tells me that she has started writing, eating independently – I feel that I have missed out on things. But it was a well thought out decision and I would rather stay positive. A heartfelt thanks to my mom for braving it all- raising our girl single handed. What would we do without Mums?
- The past few days have been tough – I have the sudden sense of loneliness , the overcast sky and showers doesn’t help to cheer me up. I get into this mood where everything seems bleak- though thats now how I am. I am a positive person most of the time but there are these occasional days when I drown myself in sorrow. There have been a few friends who have been standing by me, constantly , checking on me, making me laugh, distract me, talk about things I like – blogs and books and sometimes just being around, hearing me out.
I have always been a person with handful of friends. Online friendships was something I could never fathom but now I have some of my closest friends as the virtual ones. Some I have never met, some I met once or twice but the bond is so strong. This support system is what I am grateful for.
- October saw me participate in the Write Tribe Pro Blogger Challenge. I had a chance to forge bonds with some new bloggers like Vinodini ,Sunitha and Ryan. Most of my posts were very well received, especially this one on finding love outside marriage and the one about my decision to take up this work assignment though it meant staying away from my child. One of the greatest joys of blogging is this awesome community support , as some of the readers touch your soul with their heartwarming comments and as time passes new bonds are formed.
- I have never really said a thank you to my husband and here is the time to do it. Having an ambitious wife is not easy- she is super ambitious about her career, then about her blogging which leaves her with very little time for you- of cos the baby comes before you(hubby). We have had our share of terrible times but as he says “My world is small and you are a big part of it”, I have felt this quite strongly in the time I have been living apart. This support, not in words but in deeds, he is a man of few words- being around,putting up with my outbursts and sending me that message the next day once I have cooled down- I am thankful for his presence in my life. We haven’t been spending time together and thats what we need the most. As he travels to Zurich tomorrow for 2 weeks, I hope we can rekindle our romance. You may see me lesser on the blog.
All in all, its been a fabulous month where I travelled to many destinations including the dream city Paris, solo travel was a great experience and I see myself in a new light. I was quite surprised at how comfortable I was in traveling alone and I actually enjoyed the experience so much.Living alone, spending time on things I like – reading, blogging, eating alone it has been different from the routine but enjoyable nevertheless.
I thank God for blessing me with sunshine in my life- there are those cloudy days which seem so long and it feels like they will suck the happiness out of me, but the cloud disappears after a while and the sun shines bright again. It has quite a lot to do with training your mind to fight those inner demons and not let them conquer you.
Hoping that November is filled with more sunshine, warmth, love, happiness and gratitude .
Linking up with Vidya Sury Gratitude Circle